On Sunday I had a really good session of badminton and as I walked back to the house, walking on the carpet of autumn leaves I thought to myself ‘I love this time of year when the trees show us how beautiful it can be to let go.’
One thing I have always been really happy about is that I have no regrets in my life. Everything that has happened or that I have done, good or bad, has been for a reason and if nothing else, I have learnt something from it.
I have been following a woman on Instagram, Hannah Martin, who totally rocks a lob ‘long bob’ haircut and I really wanted one. Every time I feel brave enough to chop my hair that much, I chicken out. Yes, there will be people out there who think it doesn’t suit me etc etc but how will I know unless I try? What is there to be scared of and well, hair grows back! At the same time my mind starting ticking because I knew I was going to cut quite a lot of hair off, I wanted it to be of some use to someone!
So I decided to donate my hair to The Little Princess Trust. They make wigs for children with cancer who have lost their hair. The possibility of giving a child some happiness and some confidence makes me so happy! It was time to let go of my hair, my anxieties and my need to please people. I wanted to do this, so I went for it!
The hairdresser was quite excited when I told her what I wanted to do! She double checked with me twice because I was taking so much off. Once I convinced her that I was sure, she excitedly put my hair into a plait to begin the process. A ponytail or a plait is required in order to keep the hair together. My plait came all the way down my back.
She said are you ‘ready’ I said ‘yes’ and took a deep breath. I closed my eyes and felt her cutting the plait off. My hair is like me, stubborn, so she had to keep at it for a few seconds before finally the plait came away. My remaining hair sprung free from the plait and I felt air rushing around my neck and shoulders! My head felt so light, it was amazing. I didn’t realise how much my hair weighed! I felt free!
I asked my hairdresser to make sure the length was such that I could still tie my hair up when I play badminton. She got it spot on. When she washed my new shorter hair, it felt amazing. So light, so fresh. I loved it!
The plait will now be sent off to the The Little Princess Trust, so I am really pleased about that and I love my new hair! I can’t wait to play badminton with it and see how much easier and quicker it will be to wash my hair afterwards! It looks so much healthier too! I am so glad I’ve done this!
My friends seemed to love it too, so I was really happy about that! I have been showered with compliments at work and by my family. It’s still me behind the hair…I feel very much myself and I feel very feminine.
Speaking of letting go. I am also hoping to let go of some of the bad habits I have picked up in badminton, like moving my arm from my side rather than from above when attempting a overhead ‘shot.’
I met a retired county player on the weekend. He was number 8 in the UK at one point. To me, he felt like a celebrity! He gave me some great tips. I feel like he has really changed my game. They might be subtle changes that only I realise but I really appreciate them. He told me to move my right foot back when I draw my racket up over my head and then when I swing, to bring both my right arm and my right leg forward with the motion. This has helped me so much. The movement is so much more fluid and I feel like I am keeping my arm up rather than to the side as this feels more natural with this movement. My group coach on Tuesday night noticed the difference as did I! I find myself practicing this everywhere now….while I’m walking to the printer in my office and even when I’m waiting for my train!
It’s not a bad thing to keep developing and learning. Sometimes this means letting go of what is not working for you. I feel like I am learning something new every day and I am ready to let go of what isn’t working for me.